10/16/2020
You know I love the universe, and I believe sharing our story is so important. This journey is no different and I hope it can help someone who might be currently in the mix of it all.
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I had decided after a while of not getting pregnant that if someone asked if we were going to have kids I would just be honest and say that we were trying. This is hard, mostly because when you’re “trying” you are thinking about it most of the time, and then when maybe you’re just going about your day and actually NOT thinking about it for once, someone asks you and it triggers you right back to thinking about it again. This is upsetting. And it can be a total day ruiner. However I think another part of it if you dig a little deeper is that it feels like admitting defeat. It feels like something is wrong with you, you can’t do something that is so natural and expected and you have no idea why. So I sat with this, thinking about it. I realized the answer “We’re trying, it hasn’t happened yet” is not a shameful answer. Through no fault of mine is it that we are not pregnant. When and if it happens is exactly as it’s meant to. So why try to hide that?
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With that mentality, when a friend asked and I told her we had been trying, she told me I had to read the book “Taking Charge of your Fertility”. Open to whatever the universe is trying to tell me. I bought the book.
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One day on the train into NYC I was gonna break out the book and start reading. If you know this book you know it’s like a freaking dictionary. It’s huge. So naturally I was a little embarrassed and thought “please don’t take out this ginormous book with the huge words FERTILITY printed all over the cover in front of all these strangers” but then I was like nope- if the universe is telling me to do it, do it. So I have the book on my lap as me and Ivy are chatting on the train across from each other. Somewhere near the Stamford stop a woman gets on and sits next to Ivy, across from me. We start chatting and turns out she had gotten married in Mystic, (we knew all of her vendors 😂) and she spent summers in GLP, where we were living! Small world!! Then she says “I see what book you’re reading, I went through a lot of rounds of IVF to get my two sons. And I was on this awesome podcast called you should check it out.” Totally open to all suggestions, I put it on my list.
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On one of the episodes was a woman named Amy, who invented an at home progesterone testing kit. Amy had her own journey which inspired her to invent . When I got the tests I took my results to the amazing Facebook community she started, and someone in there recommended talking to a NaPro Dr. in Georgia. I had never heard of NaPro doctors, but they dig very deep to find out the reason for infertility. After my first consult with them I already had answers that the other Drs I had been working with didn’t. Within 3-4 months of working with them I found out I was pregnant!!
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I’m sharing this just hoping that if someone is struggling they know that first and foremost it’s ok. Unfortunately infertility effects an unbelievable amount of couples, you are not alone. But if you are struggling, I hope you open up to someone about it. Feel free to DM me!! You never know where their suggestion may lead. If that feels too hard, I would suggest finding a Facebook group where you can get information from people who don’t know you personally. Of course be careful and do your own research, but settling for a feeling of hopelessness is not ok. And just know whatever your journey to parenthood is, it’s absolutely the way it was meant to be 🙌🏼
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