Music Of The Rivers

09/11/2023

My friend, my cousin,
Venessa

You are a friend to hundreds of people.
You are a damn fine warrior.

Venessa

I lost everything.
I had house.
I had cars.
I had a career.
I had respect.
My son's had a family of hope.

It was like I was murdered.
But worse.

I had a complete collapse.
I opened a hole in the ground.
I dove in.

I still....
I still am trying to recover.
Still trying to rest and reload.

Trying to remount.

I once believed.

I am trying to believe again.

I lost my wife as well.
She wrote love poems to me.
She wrote love poems.

No one who was that close to me,
like she was, could stay for long.
I was walking below ground.

I...
I compare this to losing a child.
This was like losing a family.

I eventually became angry.
I became who I hate.
Angry.

This is the most I have been able to talk about this,
In twenty three years .
... something about this .
This gushing over the NFL.
This season it got to me.
my friends.
People who I honor and Respect.
I just took a long walk and had a long talk with the ancestors.
Do you know what they told me...

Mni Wiconi

Water is life.

I came back and I am just began unfollowing the paths that are not my path.

I don't search thru Facebook to find them
I just read the feed of the posts of the people I love.
If I see my friends gushing over "their team",
I reply with " why "
I don't say anything else.
I don't unfriend
I don't lecture
I don't relive my ...
I don't go thru my pain for them.
They just are not being seen at my campfire any more.

I have to be my own best lifeguard.

I have to save my soul before I preach to anyone.

Venessa

I am not special.

I think everyone is broken.

I once made a bold move.

I asked creator to show me
what creator sees.

I haven't stopped crying.

when I was below ground.
When I was angry.
When I was even angry
at the people
who were carrying me to help.

Angry at my strong wonderful wife.
Angry at my three perfect children.
Angry at God.
I was f King screaming angry

I asked to see thru god's eyes.

God said ok.
Here you go.
Hear is what you prayed for.

Know this, Casey.
You never get to close your eyes again.
You never get to look away.

I have go cry now.

I do have hope.

I believe that one dawn.
One morning.
Creator will look at heaven
Creator will stand.
The universe will stand
And some where
Two of gods children will be heard

and their call will be answered.

I may be delusional.

but it is a light of hope
that I cling too.

I believe in something better
because I must.

I apologize for typos.
Read my heart
that is where the truth is

I love you so much

You.

You.

You who hold the broken
You who listen.

I love the heck out of you.

You teach me to become better.

Ain't that what life is about.

04/06/2019

there will be tears
there will be thunder
there will be streams turned into rivers
yet even in the darkest night
there will be stars around your shoulders
there will love that lights your way
there will be love

Live Christmas Special (Sessions At West 54th)

03/12/2017

My family listened to CELTIC SOUL perform this song in the Spring of 1999,
and because we believe in The Magic of Music,
we left our ISLAND of safety
and we set sail on an adventure to Save The Rivers,
and our boat sank,
and our family was shattered and is still scattered..we gave our life, our home, all our posessions, all our fortune, even all our dreams and hopes,
and we gave it all to Creator...
we gave it all away...to The Music of The Rivers...
God be with us, in our rising ...
And, even, in our falling away.
God forgive me.
I know I myself might never find the strength,
or peace, to do what I ask of God.
God, I pray, please forgive me.
And bless my Brave sons,
Who never failed to rush the enemy.
And bless the Dear wife I lost in the waves,
She never failed to love me,
Her last "I love you"
Falling beneath the seas,
And bless The Music of The Rivers
Whose voices sang loud again,
Across the breach at Backwater Bridge
In the Lakota words Mni Wiconi...
From the River I was born
To the river
I will return
To hear her sing
"I love you."
Once again.






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Blessings Beautiful Blessings

09/18/2013

It all started with a family car trip.

09/17/2013

Very Happy Mayo supports after their win today!